69 steps

Mo-Fr. nur noch 3 mal. ja da kommt freude auf. ich bines wirklich leid sie zu gehen. ja gut ich könnte mitdem lift fahren, aber sich bereits früh morgens mit 7 anderen in einen 6-personen lift zu zwängen ist nicht gerade meine vorstellung eines guten morgens.

vorfreude ist die schönste freude, oder? mir egal sie kann nicht so groß sein wie die freude die ich wohl diesen freitag um 13:30 verspüren werde wenn ich diese 69 stufen zum letzten mal nach unten wandern werde.


update für den fernen osten

hi michi. ich beginne mal so direkt. also unsere brücke ist fertig - naja fast es fehlen noch geländer aber sie ist befahrbar. die bauverhandlung ist mitte oktober. klingt komisch - ist aber so. ich weiß nicht wer sich dabei nichts gedacht hat, aber ich nehme an gemeinde sowie bauverantwortliche sind etwas nachlässig.

I don't care if your world is ending today...

...Because I wasn't invited to it anyway... ... I don't really care what gentlemen prefer...

Du hättest in mir deinen besten Freund haben können. Warst zu arrogant. War dir zu nieder.
Du hättest ein leichtes Leben haben können. Warst zu hochmütig. Zu weit weg um es zu sehen.

Nun hast du jemanden der nur noch 6 Tage hier verbringt und das Interesse an dir verlohren hat. Good Job!

Dies sind meine letzten Taten hier und ich werde nicht untätig Alles was du dir vorstellst über mich ergehen lassen. Meine letzte Aufgabe ist es dir zu zeigen wie cool du wirklich bist.

Alles andere ist Nebensache. Du hast meine volle Aufmerksamkeit. Enjoy!

massiv müde

Die spuren des gestrigen Tages zeigen sich heute deutlich in meinen Augen. Müde. Demotiviert. 2.033.941 Sekunde bis es endlich vorbei ist!
Zu lange.

so this is real?

941, 942, 943, langsam.
Hört mich jemand? nein? egal.
Frage mmich jede Minute wieder warum ich bin wo ich bin - tue was ich tue. Sinnfrei.

18 mal die Augen öffnen.

Viel zu lange. Vergeudete Zeit. Erinnert mich an Beschäftigungstherapie.
Kreativität schläft. Produktivität langweilt sich. Motivation weit unter dem Grundwasserspiegel.

Themenwechsel - schnell.

Die Ironie des Morgens.
Aufstehen - den Tag vergeuden - 12 Stunden später bemerken, dass der Tag zu Ende ist, wenn meine Freizeit beginnt. Juhuu - Die Ironie dieser Freude.

vz = 7,75 + 4,15; //Vergeudete Zeit - Norm + Fahrzeit
rz; //Restzeit
rt = 18 //RestTage

rz = (vz * rt) * 3600

rz = 777600 Sekunden.

Tick - Tack. zu Langsam.

Sprunghaft

...war ich wohl schon immer. Patriot? - naja soviel wie nötig! - Trotzdem jetzt Deutsch, auch wenn mir von studierten Journalisten nachgesagt wird meiner Muttersprache kaum mächtig zu sein!

Meine letzten Wochen in Villach haben begonnen, der letzte Freitag leider noch so fern, aber da ist Licht am Horizont.

Die Bauarbeiten in unserem Garten eingestellt bis es eine Einigung gibt. Ein schadenfrohes Grinsen darüber kann ich mir keineswegs verkneifen.

Mein Urlaub - vorbei!
Schockierender Weise könnte ich mir bedeutend schlimmeres vorstellen. Der erste Tag wieder im "Nest" - eine lustige umschreibung und keineswegs von mir - eher weniger erfüllen und auch keines Falls spannend, trotzdem kann sich mein Gemüht nicht beklagen, eigentlich bin ich... ...und das musss reichen!

the hole - impressions part2

Here are some more pictures of the building-site in front and at directly in the garden of my families house. Just click the images to enlarge them.


First of all, thats how it look befor they started digging a huge.









Then one day these things appared behind our house. These things alone aren't really a problem but in combination with the fact that we can't enter our gateway by car it is a real big problem. We have 5 cars (one for everyone with a driving license) and we can't use our gateway or the garages to park our cars. So the only place to do so is next to the street behind the house, but unfortunately there is this container and the other stuff from the building site.


During the building process our garden turned into a building site, not usabel for anything anymore and this situation last now for about 2 month.







From time to time they use our gateway as a place to put their building equipment. In fact our gateway shouldn't be used as a part of the building site, that's simply not right. We can't enter it or use it!






During this building process the caused a lot of damage in our gateway, because construction machines were driving through our gateway. I don't think that's the way such a project should work.
Here are some of the damaged things in our gateway and that's a place that shouldn't be influenced by the building process because it has nothing to do with that.

The building site changes everyday, but I think these pictures should show you what chaos it causes everyday.


At the end of this post I just want to say that I am really pissed of about the way this project is done. It is a real big part of living quality for us getting lost, because of no or really bad organisation.

one more morning

Tomorrow I have to stand up for work the last time before my holidays begin. 2 weeks of beeing free of allday manners. I think I need it. My last holiday wasn't just yesterday, I was so far in the past that I can't really remember what I did in this free time.
I think I should write down my plans for this holiday here, so that everybody know why I am not at home.

After work tomorrow I'll take my car and drive to my familie's holiday-house in the moutains for celebrating my moher's birthday.
At sunday I'll leave the holiday-house and get myself to my girlfriend - in fact that means driving from one mountain to another.
There I'll stay untill Tuesday, because on Tuesday me and my girlfriend are going to murau until Thursday. I don't exactly know if I will directly return home again or if I will stay a bit in our holiday-house again, we'll see.

So after that there is still a week in which nothing is planed. That's what I call holiday!

the hole - impressions part1

Here are some pictures of the street and the building-site which I called garden once upon a time. I do not blaim anyone for this. In fact I am very happy about getting a new and stable bridge, but the fact that this takes so long is really annoying.
Just click onto the pictures to enlarge them for getting a better view of what I see every in front of my house.

3rd of July



4th of July



7th of August

the hole - introduction

I think I am glad to have a room on the back-side of the house, because I don't want to see how this hole grows everyday.
It all started with an old and unsafe bridge in front of the house I am living in. Now there is hole that's probably 15 times as big as the old bridge was und about 5 times as deep as the tunnel underneath the old bridge. The garden next our gateway is now a building site and even our gateway itself is looking like this and is completly unsuable. I can't enter the gateway by car anymore because the whole street in front of it is missing.
I am pretty pissed of, because of this. To drive to work, shopping or anywhere else I have to use a dirty way through a forrest. This fact costs me about 3 minutes every morning and evening and to piss me on in the morning is really not nice.
I don't know how long it will take till there is a bridge again, and I don't know how much longer it will take till our garden and gateway is usable again. I really hate it. I will post some pictures of the hole in the next few days so you can follow the process of building a huge hole for a bridge that was so little.

future and its details

Yesterday, I heard something that made me thinking about it for hours. In fact I am still thinking about it. This little thing was something like this "...but now you might should know how your life should look like in a few years. You should have plans!"
I am sry, I don't. Of course there were some moments when I was thinking about what life should look like, but these thoughts were mostly about my carrier, not about family or things like this. Since yesterday I also think about things like that. I am no child anymore. It is getting time to make some serious plans about my personal life. At the moment I don't have answers to my question, but I made an interessting discovery. I am not able to make these decissions on my own. No, I don't need somebody to hold my hand. I just think, there is someone who has to make this decissions with me, because if life goes like I want it, than she will be a big part of my future and my future will be her future and vice versa. So I think I will risc it to talk to her about this. I think it's time to do so. To be prepared for that what tomorrow brings us.

messege from home.

I don't really know how late it is at your location right now, but I just got up one and a half hours ago. I am at work just had my first coffee.
I got your sms yesterday and I feel like I have to tell whats going on at home.
The big hole in front of my house gets bigger and bigger everyday - I will post some pictures of it soon. It is nearly impossible to find a place to park my car, because there is building equipment everywhere in my garden and on the street around the house.
You left austria on thoursday, right? So you missed two of the hottest days I can remember. I was nearly melting - you know I like constant 20°C, so 30°C and more the whole day long where too much for me.
My homepage is online again. Just sign up and tell me and the other user in the forum what life is like on the other side of the planet. Feel free to create a new topic for this.
I will reactivate my skype today, because calling each other the normal way could get a bit expensive.

So if you feel like missing home, just look in my blog to see whats going on at home or visit my homepage!

Seas, dude! Und viel spaß auf der anderen Seite der Welt.

heat wave PART 2

I think I've got my own sauna! The office I work in feels like this. Even in the morninghours at 8:00AM or 9:00AM it feels allready hot in there. Now it's half-past 2PM and I really feel like melting away. It is a south-east sided office with windows on each side. It's impossible to keep it cool.



Today the newspaper told me:
"Again temperatures up to more than 30°C"

...and tomorrow it might be even hotter.


I drank allready four bottles of water today, just keep myself from drying. Working like this is really hard, but I think I won't complain if I had holydays now. So let's work on and don't think about the weather.

heat wave

Today the news paper told me something that totally destroyed my hope for the weather to get cold again.

'Record summer like in 2003!' - 'Today's temperatures up to 37°C!'

When I left the house this morning at 7:35AM it was warm like on an nice sommer day at 12:00AM. 20°C.

My body doesn't seem to be able to cope with that very good. I feel like melting away since I stood up! That's a lot to hot for me. I hate it! A little bit of rain would be a very big help for me.

it's all about a dream.

I am not the one that believes that this world is fair or generous, but today this world showed me once again that having a dream and doing everything to make this dream come true is the way that leads to success.

I want to thank everyone who made it possible for me to lead such a life. My my loved sweety for accepting me like I am, my parents for everything they did in the last 19 years, my sisters for forming my character and my friends for beeing what they are.

I am, who I am - as someone called god said once upon a time - because I had the chance.

My live is perfect as it can be. I hope it stays like this.

jackpot

WOW. Yes thats the only thing that came to my mind as I heard what they're planing to do with me. Some time ago, I told a very good friend of mine, that my life is perfect and couldn't get much better. The last hour teached me that this wasn't try. I feel like I've won a million euros! Or even more!
I can't write more I am to excited right now!

mono, stereo, dolby? what am I talking about?

First of all... ...mono. .NET for everyone. I liked programming C#, but since I am using Ubuntu Linux it got a little hard to do, but sudo apt-get install mono monodevelop solved my problem.
MonoDevelop is a very comfortable tool for developing .NET applications using Linux. I think it will take some time for me to get used to it, but it is defenitly possible.

using System;
class HelloWorld {
   static void Main() {
      Console.WriteLine("Hello World");
   }
}

the source of creativity

Of course this image was not made by me, but it makes me thinking about how creative I can be at the moment. I have to design something new. After beeing offline for so long and so many things that have changed I think i have to create something new. Something that represents my current way of being and the one which it was some month ago.
In fact this sounds easier than it is. My mind is no endless source of great ideas. I think it is just a huge sphere of chaos, but I try to form something cool again. Maybe I will succed maybe not. We'll see.

tranquillity

My whole life long I was searching for a way to find perfect silence and a possibility to make my self able to see everything clear and logic.
This seeking only gave me one answer: Chaos is the most perfect form of order.
Now I think I maybe got a step closer to my goal of setting my mind free.
I will see if it works. I have nothign to loose, so give it a try.

the thousandth attempt

I hope I will forget this week soon, because in fact it's the worste week I had this year so far. There wasn't something really shocking terrible but the whole situation makes me sick. I don't feel very good since monday. - headache, cold, tired, all the time.
The next frustrating thing is that work is really boring this week. Nothing cool to do just frustrating little things, that don't work at all. I hate it. Standing up in the morning feels like getting shot a thousand times. It's not my time this week. I hope at friday afternoon everything gets better for me.
I really hope so.

Hit by lightning

Of course not really. Stripes of light falling through the half-open shutter of the window next to me, sky is getting blue again.
The thunderstorm is over. It was so impressive. I like watching the heavy rain, storm and the lightnings. The days before yesterday where unbelieveable hot, so this thunderstorm was really necessary. The only negative thing about it was that there was blackout for more than an hour yesterday evening. I hate blackouts, because I need my PC, my laptop, internet and my TV. Ok, my laptop worked, but without internet it is not the same.
My dad pulled out his emergency backup generator but this doesn't help me with my internetproblem either.
So I had to wait an watch the weather. And it was beautiful.