The Countdown-Diary [ T - 12 Days, 23 Hours, 16 Minutes, 31 Seconds ]

so you think I am some kind of mean?
I don't think so.

So you think it is easy for me?
I wish it would be like this.

I know that the chance for me to pass this exam is pretty high, but it is not my goal just to pass it. Everyone thinks it is no problem for me.

Everyone thinks I will have a superior result on may the 7th. Everyone thinks it is so easy for me.

This is a lot of pressure, because even myself wants me to make it perfect.
I am thinking about nothing else. My whole life is controlled by this pressure to perform. I know that most of the others just want to pass, but I wouldn't be me, if "just pass" would be a possible option.

If somebody told me 4 years ago, that I will feel like this today I probably just told him, that I don't like bad jokes.

I think I grew up... ...a bit... ...,but it is not much easier.

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